I will start with the small negative of the weekend. I was in the hospital over the weekend with my colitis/crohns, gallbladder pain, and a colonoscopy setback. I was told I would need to see a surgeon about gallstones and I did see the surgeon while I was in the hospital. Thankfully, I do not need my gallbladder removed. All I have to do is change my diet, which is not a bad thing. Eating better is something I try to strive for. After what seemed like forever, we finally got me back on my Remicade (a whole other story), which is what I take to keep all my other stomach issues under control. I feel 100 times better than I did two weeks ago! While I was in the hospital, Rob and his mom took great care of the boys. Lucas did very well, too, and has gone back to nursing very well. It was a small negative, but more positives came from it!
The most awesome thing that happened this weekend was that we got Landon's BAHA back! He has been without it because Liam got a hold of it and it needed to be repaired. Since he's had it back he has not said, "I can't hear it", in reference to not hearing the TV or radio. He can hear out of both of his ears! The next step is to set up another appointment with his audiologist so she can conduct a hearing test with the BAHA to make sure it is indeed functioning well. He got it back just in time for preschool to start within the next month. I'm just crossing my fingers that it does not get damaged at school. He really is adorable wearing the BAHA. I will miss how adorable the headband looks (even though some people call him a girl with it on) once he is able to have the surgery for the BAHA implant in a few years.
|Look how happy he is to have his BAHA!|
I did title this post quite well. This was information overload. I'm not done yet. Back to my time in the hospital. I dug deep into God's word and just used it as a time to spend time with God. Spending time with God can be a struggle with four boys going in four different directions. I allowed God to speak to me and tell me what I needed to change about myself and about my daily ways/routine. It wasn't easy to hear what God wanted me to learn, but I am taking what taught me and making the necessary applications. I want to be used by God in this season of life. I want my boys to see that I'm content and at peace as a mom and wife. They haven't seen much of that lately because I've been letting the enemy tell me otherwise. I'm going to work on not being a stressed out and frazzled mom/wife. I want my husband to see the same thing. Where I am at in life is where God wants me. Where God wants our family is where He wants us. I am going to look for ways to be used by God at home and in my group of friends.
Here are some things God spoke to me about:
"Like a gold ring in a pig's snout is a beautiful woman who shows no discretion." -Proverbs 11:22 God used this verse to tell me I need to control my tongue. My tongue is a horrible weapon. With God's help I can keep what I say in check, including how I say it.
"But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart." -Luke 2:19 God used this verse to help remind me that I need to be still and know that HE is God. I need to enjoy little moments before they are gone. These moments include times with Rob and with the boys. Soak up moments and leave others things be. Other things can wait, but time with my family cannot wait.
"Master, we've worked all night and haven't caught anything." -Luke 5:5 God used this verse to help me understand that my will needs to be HIS will. I want to obey what He has planned for my family and I.
"She is clothed with strength and dignity. She can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." -Proverbs 31:25-26. God used this verse to speak to me about the woman I need to be. Let God shine in my life and keep my focus on Him. When my focus is on God, everything will be alright.
I know this was a LONG post. I had to write about everything. Readers, pray for me and hold me accountable. God is working on me. He is never done working on me. God used a short time in the hospital to grab a hold of me and tell me to get it together. I'm getting it together! I asked for forgiveness for ignoring what He wants of me. I have crazy moments, but I am not alone. God is with me in all of the crazy moments. I'm not the only one to struggle, and I lean on others that struggle like I do so we can support, encourage, and love one another. I need to keep my faith, hope, and love that I talk about so much.
If you have read this far, thank you. I hope my testimony from this weekend will help a reader if they are struggling.