I am the kind of person that likes to know the answer to why anything happens. I also like to know everything and be in the know about things that are happening. I like to know what will happen next. I try hard to be okay with not knowing the answer to everything and not knowing what will happen next. I fail a lot and it ends up with me worried or frustrated. As you can imagine this is where I struggle in my walk with God.
I know I am not the only who struggles in this area. I think a lot of people also want to know the answers to everything and know what will happen next. Something I've learned and still have to learn is that it is okay to not know answer. It is okay to not know what the next step may be in life. For me, I am learning to be okay with it because I have faith in a God who DOES know. He knows all of the answers, even the answers to those tough questions. He knows what the next step in my life is going to be. I may not know, but I'm learning that it is okay.
So why am I writing about this? If you have read my recent posts, you know that we moved to a different house in the area we live in. My husband graduated college in May of 2016 with a degree in high school social studies/history. This is the time of year that teaching jobs become available for next school year. He has already put in several applications to different schools in the state of Kentucky (where we live). With him applying to schools all over Kentucky, it could potentially mean we would move again if he gets interviewed and hired with one of the schools he is applying to.
I have to ask, if we end up moving across the state, then why did we end up moving to where we live now in the first place? I also ask and question, will my husband get a teaching job this school year? These are questions I don't know the answer to, but I sure wish I did. Like I said, I am learning every day to be okay to not know the answers to these questions. I have faith that God will open a door for my husband. If it involves another move, then we are definitely okay with that. Of course, the first question of why did we move in the first place is not answered. I may have to accept the fact that it may never be. I trust that God had a reason for our move that we just did. I may not know it now, but hopefully I will. If I don't, I will be okay with it because God had reason.
I know my questions are petty compared to other questions. I have faced the harder questions in life such as: Why did she have pass away so young?, Why did I miscarry?, Is his disability my fault?, Why am I out casted by people I thought were my friends?
Yes, there are tough questions out there that we don't know the answers to. As time goes on sometimes the answers show up in unexpected, but positive ways. She may have been young, but she did have an impact on others. If it weren't for my miscarriage I wouldn't have been able to help someone else going through it. I can speak out about his disability. I found some new friends that have impacted me in ways my old friends never did.
Even if we don't find out the answers to the tough questions, we just need to believe that there is a reason for them. It is okay to not know the answer.
Here some comforting Bible verses that I have found about being at peace with not knowing why things happen or what will happen next. I hope they are helpful for you as well.