As a Christian, expressing my weaknesses is a testament my strength as well. It takes strength to admit that you have weaknesses. My weakness lately has been my lack of faith. I am not proud of my lack of faith. Where this has been my weakness lately, I've definitely been feeling a distance from God. I am writing to say that this has been my weakness, especially when hard times come.
As I wrote in my last post (http://junewife627.blogspot.com/2017/01/our-5th-pregnancy-journey-so-far.html), God worked a miracle in our life. I believe that God worked that miracle to give myself, and even my family, hope and faith again. I feel like God wanted me to learn a lesson about faith and learn that He is still faithful, even when it is hard to see. In the past two months, my faith is stronger again. My hope is stronger again. I'm seeing God in a whole new way that I haven't before.
I don't know if you have ever lacked faith, gotten mad at God, or even questioned him. All three I have done this past year. God can handle it. He is God, he is bigger than what we can even imagine. The best thing about him handling our lack of faith, anger at him, and questioning is that he forgives us. I am so thankful that he forgives us when we lose faith, get mad at him, and question him.
I am so thankful God has forgiven me for my lack of faith and hope recently. I am thankful that these experiences, good and bad, are drawing me closer to God. All I want to be is close to God. I could feel myself drifting away from God and there was a period in the past year where my heart just felt empty. Now, my heart feels full again. I know there will still be times ahead that aren't easy. I know there will be life events that will make me want to lose faith and hope. I am going to use this blog post to look back on when more bad times come as a reminder to lean on God and not grow apart from God.
God has used my pregnancy to teach me some lessons and he is continuing to use my pregnancy to teach me some lessons. I am sure many of you can relate to having a life experience in which God taught you some valuable lessons (if you feel comfortable, I would love for you to share what they are with me via a private message on my Facebook page: www.facebook.com/faithhopelove627).